I'm easily distracted over things.
Things that should not be thought all the time but i took all my life dwelling into it.
Petty things and it is pathetic!
Tonight, i received a sad news on my friend's loss.
He lost his brother and upon reading the news, all i can say were Astaghfirullah repeated times.
For i am in total shock and disbelief over what i read.
He surely was a good son and brother.
I pray so that he'll be placed among the righteous ones. Aminn...
Motor vehicle accident. MVA.
This immediately flashed my memory back to September 2016
It was a MVA but it involved my brother and his friends.
The impact was devastating.
Few days in ICU, then he was transferred to HDW.
Few days in HDW, changed to surgical wards and lastly to rehabilitation ward.
From hospitals in Pulau Pinang, to Kedah, and finally transferred to Negeri Sembilan.
Days changed to months.
We were devastated.
We prepared for the worst.
Mentally and physically.
But i'm not sure, were we really prepared for the worst? All in my mind was "will this end? will he wakes up? will he be bed bound?
We heard doctors asked us to buy the ripple mattress, asked our consent to do PEG tube on my brother, be prepared to bring him back home.
We heard it all but it seems surreal. We were not ourselves.
Can my brother handled the PEG tube whilst he himself was literally pulling all tubes on his body?Restless all the way?in semi-conscious state?
I was devastated
I just started my final year and it was surgical posting (the most 'disciplined' amongst all posting)
I was distracted
How can i let my parents handle these alone
I am the eldest daughter.
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Looking back to the past
Somehow or rather, my family and i get through this bumpy road
Often i fell down to this wild emotions of anger and sadness
but it was not for long because i know i need to finish what i started
and remembering that one piece of advice i gave to my junior when she wanted to do medic
Do it right
Do it right the first time
It strikes me.
and of course it's absolutely essential to stand up each time you fall right?
The one that i forgot to tell.
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Looking back to the past
Somehow or rather, my family and i get through this bumpy road
Often i fell down to this wild emotions of anger and sadness
but it was not for long because i know i need to finish what i started
and remembering that one piece of advice i gave to my junior when she wanted to do medic
Do it right
Do it right the first time
It strikes me.
and of course it's absolutely essential to stand up each time you fall right?
The one that i forgot to tell.
